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Little Moments Of Bliss is a silhouette of a feeling that resides in my heart. A software engineer by degree, a writer at heart, and a teacher by profession, I'm all that I never thought I would be. Pretty pictures,a poem that blatantly refuses to rhyme, a text from a deranged friend, a sudden gesture of love, its these little things in life, that matter and sprinkle bliss. Grace the couch and share a cuppa!

March 2, 2012

Maybe, someday...


At some certain times in our lives, we all do things we swore we'd never do, become something we never wanted to be, desperately try to stop loathing someone you know you'll never like. What next? Ashton Kutcher might pompously philosophize 'I'd rather do nothing than do something I am not passionate about', but do you and your dignity stoop low if this isn't applicable in your life? Habits. They conspire against you. They make you scrawny and feeble. You like getting habitual to people, situations, and songs. You get so comfortable in your skin that you have to scratch it off to make way for change. It might be for the greater good but you detest it. It leaves scars that remind you of happier times.

Growing up is a tedious task. Wounded knees were easier to heal, they say, you understand now, and I know you're not nursing a broken heart. Responsibilities bounce up and down, all around your existence and one sporadic incident makes them realize you cannot handle the pressure. Yet the change keeps on sprinkling little incidents all over your day. You live through them and lose what's left of your tiny little being. A cold beer and an old friend, try to revive you out of your self-induced pain and depression, but who knew, you were meant to drown. You know you cannot break the monotony, but that doesn't stop you from trying. Or does it?

You touch your face and sense a vague sense of pressure like you've put a dozen masks over it. You look at the sky and envy its job of smiling down at the world during the day and resting under the stars at night. But you're sure; it would trade anything to get rid of it. Monotone bites it too. You run with the hare and hunt with the hounds. They say, take life as it comes, what if you don't want to? Rules. You cannot be rebellious now because you're not 16 anymore. You get a new wardrobe and streak your mane a golden brown. The color doesn't compliment you but you're satiated with the knowledge of it being different and new. You're not an amateur, I know that, I believe in you, even when nobody else does.

They love and they care, irrespective of what you decide to do with your life. Yet, somehow, you feel obligated; you think you owe it to them. You don't know how to accept too much love and care but you do complain when they don't come along your way. You hear people complaining and ranting about severe headaches that might explode their heads, and until today, you did not know how one felt like. It's like somebody has been paid to hammer your head at regular decided intervals, and there is nothing you can do  to stop it.

Someday, it'll all start making sense and all the missing pieces will fall into place.

You'll sleep like a baby.

Maybe, someday...




49 comments:

  1. This post, it makes so much sense...
    I think this age span, 19-23/24 is the most trivial part of our life. We are no longer kids but can't call ourselves responsible adults too. Everything is confusing. Things you want and don't want at the same time. I wish there was a button to fast forward or better skip life to 28-30yrs of age

    Waiting for the day for everything to make some sense

    Stay Blessed ^_^

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    1. I couldn't care less earlier, wonder what happened now.

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  2. I felt like it was just addressed to me. i could hear it.
    This makes a lot of sense!

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    1. I honestly did not think it would make sense to anybody else but me.

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  3. I've said time and time again that I've done something to become something I never wanted to be. I do it more often than I would like. I also don't like change. I accept it as a necessary part of life, but I also know I don't like it. I don't have to, I just have to go through it sometimes.

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    1. I don't know mark, it makes sense only to me. I'm also doing something I never wanted to do, out of my wishes, but does that matter when people form an opinion of me ?

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  4. I was craving for more of ur words ayu!
    Sigh! May be, someday! :)

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  5. I wait for that someday too :)
    Loved it :)

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  6. Growing up takes the fun out of life..I guess everything change since the day I graduated..Things were simpler when I were a student

    SOmeday we will feel at peace,that is when we make peace with life :)
    Take care

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  7. There are 2 ways you can enjoy a roller coaster ride - screaming with fear or screaming with exhilaration; depends on how you wanna remember the ride later. Something tells me you're gonna do the latter. This was one of your best. :)

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    1. I ramble, now you know ;)
      and what if I wanna try a different ride ?

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  8. makes a lot of sense . . . life in itself is a struggle for most . . sometimes we are forced to compromise a lot to even survive. . nice post

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    1. Since the day I graduated, life changed.

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  9. Going with the flow as long as it does not take you off track is may be the best way! Lovely words, and keep hunting with the hounds and run with the hares:)

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  10. Heavy heavy stuff.

    Growing up comes with a lot of expectations and it takes a lot ot grow up we lose so many things and gain so manythings .. A person is that who knows what he has gained and works harder ot gain more rather than delve in thinking what is lost ..

    Bikram's

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    1. My heart felt extremely light after penning this down.

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  11. Someday! The word itself gives hope.. endless hope..!

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  12. it seems such a long while to realise somebody's unconditional love and care for us... and even longer, not to take that for granted. But i guess it would just help if we allowed ourself to be loved by those who care rather than care about those who don't....

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    1. I realize it upto some extent and crave for more at times..

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  13. Wow , real good post.
    makes a lot of sense.
    Growing up sure is a hell of a task .

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  14. Very sensible lines. We should take life as it comes. Accept change, hope for a better present in the future.

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  15. That last line, gave a sense of hope in my mind!
    I needed that so much now!!
    You are really good with words

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  16. "Wounded knees were easier to heal, they say, you understand now, and I know you're not nursing a broken heart" :)
    Wonderfully written.
    Following you up :)

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  17. I wish someday all the pieces fall in its place and I read my own life in one smooth flow. Impressive writing...:)

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  18. This post reminded of my previous blog. I used to wake up in the middle of the night and type ferociously.

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    1. And then you wonder, why do I admire you so much ;)

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  19. habits are hard to go... and sometimes we discover something absolutely unexpected in us...serendipity :)

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  20. Growing up is a tedious task. Aye.

    Well written.

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  21. Well written post !!

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  22. A small appreciation from my side,
    http://kshahzworld.blogspot.in/2012/03/unheard-voice-can-encourage-you.html
    I love reading your posts, a way to signify it :):)

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